This little Blog of mine, Kdramadreamer, means more to me than I can express in words. That’s why this year of Blogging has really been a struggle.
I’m a flawed human being. I have many weaknesses, many insecurities. One of those insecurities is in fact Blogging. I started it as a way of expressing myself since I live and breathe Asian dramas and Cinema. I wanted to share the joy and heartache. But what I didn’t anticipate was me being in my own head which has prevented me from allowing my Blog to live to its full potential. I have so many posts that I have started and stopped because I felt they weren’t good enough. I read other Blogs and I feel inferior. Other Bloggers post more, are wittier, recap better, convey their message more concisely. It has left me doing nothing because I wallow in my own self pity.
So why would I share such distressing thoughts? Because I desperately want to overcome this. I don’t want to throw in the towel. I came close to doing so, but when I did, I started exploring my Blog and I saw pieces of myself sprinkled throughout and it hurt too much to end it abruptly.
So here I am, exposed, bearing my soul, admitting my weaknesses and hoping to turn it all around and come back stronger.